Worst blogger ever!

I win a gold medal for being the worst blogger in the entire world! I'm going to try to change this and come here much more often to update my few but very much loved readers.

Where to begin?

After having Kade, life has been a whirlwind! He's doing great & really is the light of my life. I have no idea what I did before he came along.

He is such a lover! Love to cuddle and LOVES his momma! Being home with him all day makes me number one in his life at all times. He's only left my side several time over these past 16 months and that's perfectly fine with me!

I guess a quick update on other things going on in or life would be good?

On Kade's first birthday, I got a call early from my sister. She was taking my mom to the hospital. My mom was in bad shape and was having a hard time walking. We had known something was going on with her for several months, but we had no idea what we were in for. She was diagnosed with breast cancer that has already spread to her liver, lungs and spine. We were devestated. She spent a week in the hospital and had more tests than I can count. As of today she is really doing great. We don't expect her to ever be in remission, but we hope for much more time with her. For the first time in my life, my mom actually goes to the doctor and is taking really good care of herself. I only wish things didn't have to get so bad before she decided life was worth living & we were more than willing to do whatever it took to take care of her. We came so close to losing her. Please keep my momma in your prayers. We still have a very long road ahead of us.

My husbands plumbing business has been doing great. We're on the brink of taking a huge step in the right direction and GROWING! Finally! Four years of hard work and building our client list seems to be paying off. We strictly advertise by word of mouth, we're not even listed in the phone book! That;s the only way to keep it on the right track and specialize in new construction. We may have just found a client that will keep us busy for a LONG TIME! Hoping & praying!

And lastly, we were going to get Kade a new puppy for Christmas this year, but God seems to have other plans for us & our family. Yep! #2 is on the way and I'm back to the paranoid and obsessive preggo of 2009. I'm terrified! This was not our plan, but we're excited!

I HAVE NOT SAID ANYTHING ON FACEBOOK, SO IF YOU READ HERE, PLEASE KEEP OUR SECRET! I don't want to say anything until the anatomy scan and we know for sure all is well.

So there is an update! I will be back soon!

He's Here!

Daniel Kaden Gogle arrived March 9, 2010

Screaming, healthy & with the biggest, most beautiful, sapphire blue eyes.

Very first picture

7lbs. 8oz ~ 19.5 inches long. Born at 5:02 a.m.
Christus St. John Hospital in Nassau Bay, Texas!

I am thankful beyond words and we've shed tons of tears of joy. I still can't believe he's here and our story had a happy ending this time. Thank you to everyone here who kept us in your thoughts and prayers.

Kaden's Birth Story

Part I - "But I don't want to go to the hospital tonight....I still need to go to Walmart!"

It was a whirlwind of a birth! I was in complete denial that I was even in labor for the entire day Monday. By 8:00 p.m. there was no denying he was ready to arrive. All day my contractions were a good 1 hour apart. Ron was home and we laid on the sofa all day watching TV and like clock-work, every hour I felt severe back pain. Ron asked if the contractions could go from 1 hour apart to 5 minutes apart quickly. I didn't know. I just knew when they were 5 minutes apart, it was time. About 8:00 pm they went from 1 an hour to one every 5 minutes in a split second. I took a bath and by the time I was finished, I couldn't tell when one contraction from the next. We made our way to the hospital at 11:30 p.m. checked in and I was sure I would be sent home. I had no other signs that I was actually in labor.

Part II - "I'm no hero"

The admitting nurse was going through the motions...put on the gown, give us a urine sample, get in the bed and the nurse will be in to check you. Evidently, many women had come in and been sent home this night and I guess I didn't look like I was in a lot of pain. The nurse checked and got a very concerned look on her face. I was 9 c.m. and just a lip of cervix left. He was almost born at home (or in the car)!! We were to late to have the heaven sent epidural.....I cried after hearing this news and said my famous words "I'm no hero...I need the epi!!" My nurse & Dr. Fulcher died laughing!! It was way to late to get the epi going, so I would have to so this natural. NOT MY PLAN AT ALL! After complaining about heartburn for the two hours, the nurse gave me meds to take care of it......didn't work and Ron got a nice shower of vomit. Poor guy! I never got sick, not one time, the entire pregnancy!

Part III - "Ouch, ouch & (OMG) OUCH"

For 2 more hours we let things progress (and wait for the doctor to deliver another baby next door) with contractions every 1-1/2 to 2 minutes apart....time was dragging by, but I would have thought it was going to be worse pain. At 2:00 am we started pushing. I was horrible at it! Our nurse Missy was wonderful and did a great job teaching me how. I would never have done it without her! After a good 3 hours of pushing and a few stalls due to his heart-rate dropping (scary) the doctor was finally finished next door and came in to deliver our boy! As he walked in he ordered a surgery table and informed me I would need an episiotomy. Lots more crying from me!!! I pushed two times while the doctor was in the room and Kaden was born. He didn't cry at first and I laid there begging Ron and the nurse to tell me why I couldn't hear him. Dr. Fulcher was massaging him and wasn't worried. Ron wasn't worried either....I didn't know he was watching Kaden move his hands and feet. I couldn't see that happening.....I was sure something went horribly wrong.

Part IV - That amazing sound

Then I heard a faint small cry and Ron & I both completely lost it. Lots of tears! He was here! He was taken to his bassinet to get some oxygen and have his vitals and measurements taken. Then they brought him to me and laid him on my chest. I was in total shock. His lips are the most beautiful heart shape! He has his dads blue eyes. He laid there completely quiet looking right at me. It was truly amazing and I felt I knew him my whole life. I still couldn't believe he made it here...alive & healthy. Words just can't explain!

Memories from Kaden Birthday!

Sunset from our hospital window on your true birthday!

Heading home.

Last time I walked out of the hospital, sat on the bench and waited for Ron to pick me up....tears streaming down my face, feeling the entire world was moving in slow motion around me.

This time I was wheeled out in a wheelchair with you on my lap. No words can describe how that felt......it was hard to not think about her......but I was happy.

Home sweet Home!

Home resting.....we love you sweet boy....more than words could ever express! You've made our life complete! We are so blessed to be your parents.

A back-post from March 3

Wow, it's been a while!!
So much has happened I don't know where to start.

Here's the picture I promised of me and my sister on Christmas. She was in labor at the time and made trip to the hospital that night, only to be sent home. I'm the preggo on the right!

Jackson Thomas made his appearance on December 28. As you can see, he's super cute!!!

We're just days away from our due date now and things seem to be getting tough, but OK. I'm tired, but I'm not going to complain at all. I just can't believe it's March and we're now almost 38 weeks. Things are progressing well and I now see the OB every week. I'm nervous, anxious, scared, but also ready. The baby seems to be doing great and no complications have arisen. We're so thankful, but still know how many things can go wrong. The whole "other shoe" dropping fear. It just won't go away.

This nursery is finally finished.

Before..... YIKES!!!

After.......

I've been off of work for a month now. A strange injury to my ankle put me completely out of it for several weeks. I can deal with alot of pain. I mean, I live with a dislocated left hip, but this was excruciating! We ended up in the hospital having a doppler scan to ensure it wasn't a blood clot. It was negative, so they've decided I have a good case of plantar fasciitis. Things have finally gotten better and we've finished the last little things to prepare. We even went out to eat with our best friends last weekend for dinner. That was something I didn't think would happen before our due date. I'm so thankful we got to catch up and visit.

So now we face labor & delivery. We visited the hospital and had our classes, but do you ever feel prepared for this? Especially after what we've been through? I didn't think I could ever set foot on a labor and delivery floor again in my life. I'm thankful we're at a different hospital this time and I think that may have alot to do with it. No horrible memories or associations with location, but the horrible time I had delivering last time still haunts me. I tell myself it's completely different this time, my body is preparing for this. This story will be different than the last and God willing, it will have a happy ending.

So, we wait for this boy to decide when he wants to arrive. I'm miserable, but enjying the last few days or weeks of him playing and rolling. When it gets rough, I just think...."One day, I'm going to miss this" and I get over my self-pitty really fast.

We can't hardly wait to meet this little guy & just pray he's born healthy.

Merry Christmas!!!

This is one of my favorite pictures of my husband when he was a child!

He was such a cute little boy!

(and obviously very curious!!!)

.......and our family might get a christmas baby this year.

My sister has started to show signs of labor!

"Action Jackson" (as Ron has named him) is coming soon!

We're hoping she can hold off until tonight so we can take some pictures together today

We'll see!!

Wishing everyone a very, very
Merry Christmas!!!

xoxo,

Marian & Ron

Always behind!

I know I am so far behind! This last month has just flown by! I can't believe Christmas is just 4 days away! I will admit....I have not finished shopping yet! I've barely started actually! But this is the norm in my life! Always behind!!

This last month has been quite uneventful. We were called in for another growth scan and our boy is just growing by leaps and bounds! At 23 weeks he weighed in at 1 lb. 9 oz. WOW!! He's big. He was "head-down" at this appointment, so we didn't get any profile shots! I was so uncomfortable for about 5 days with him having his head planted squarely on my bladder. I thought I would never make it! But he moved up and we've been OK ever since. His size led the the assumption that gestational diabetes was rearing it's ugly head. I was put on a strict diet and told to expect to fail the glucose tolerance test. Well, I heard from the doctor's office today that I have passed!! WooHoo!! I am so relieved! Ron was a big baby, so maybe that is why this baby is just plain BIG! I'd rather him be big and healthy, rather than small and behind in growth. He is way ahead of the curve and is measuring in the 90th percentile! Wow! A c-section may be in my future & I'm totally OK with that, but my doctor seems to be firmly against it! We'll just wait & see, I don't care how he gets here!

The little bubbles & squirms quickly turned into hefty kicks, and now have turned into bulging rolls that move across my stomach. I really love this part of pregnancy! I wasn't sure I would at first, but I love to sit and watch and feel him wiggle. Ron loves to feel him move! Most mornings before I'm awake, Ron lays his hand on my stomach and I wake up to him smiling and saying, "we've been hanging out while you were asleep!!"

My sister is due in the next 2 weeks. I'm really excited to meet my new nephew, Jackson. I was so distraught when I first found out she was pregnant, but I learned how to handle everything really well. It was hard to accept at first, but everybody can't put their life on hold because of our loss. I'm so lucky to have such an understanding sister, who is very loving & forgiving.

I would be completely honest to say this pregnancy has been vital to our healing process. Everyday is hard and stressful and filled with anxiety (how long has it been since he last moved?), but it's starting to feel like it is all worth it. Maybe this time it will all work out & we'll be able to bring him home. It's impossible to not be completely attached at this point. I love this little guy to pieces & can't wait to meet him!

We started decorating the nursery which is really strange and hard to believe! I have had these plans in my head since January of 2008. To see them actually getting done......it's both exciting and scary at the same time. The "what if's" are still there in the back of my head! I'm excited to finally create all of the home-made projects to decorate his room I have been thinking of for almost two years. And at the same time, scared for things to go wrong and having to avoid that room for months on end once again!

So there's an update about the last month! Ron will take a picture of me this week and hopefully my sister will "cross her legs and sit on her foot" so we can take some photos of our bellies/boys together on Christmas Day!

Here's wishing everyone a very, very Merry Christmas!!!

There it is!

My belly has finally made it's appearance!!
Here is a picture from 21 weeks and 2 days!

I am so behind and have so much to update. So, just to get back in the swing of things after the Thanksgiving holiday, I figured I'd post the first picture I have taken through this pregnancy. This was at 21 weeks, so we'll be taking another very soon since I'm now at 24 weeks ~ wow, that's 6 months!! This is actually the first picture where I look pregnant, not just a little chunky!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving and survived the black Friday shopping mayhem! I hid in my house all weekend and haven't spent a dime as of yet!

Happy Halloween!!

Kaden says...........

"Hello & Happy Halloween!!!!!"

I thought his little skeleton hand ultrasound picture was appropriate for the occasion!

Everyone have a safe & fun night!